John Ortberg, in his book Faith and Doubt, writes "I put all my hope in a third day God. But I live in a second-day world.” This sentence perfectly puts forth the tension that we all struggle with when it comes to living in this time - where Jesus Christ has conquered death - won the battle - but has not yet returned.
It's okay to question. If we understood everything, God wouldn't be God and we wouldn't be us.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord. ~ Isaiah 55:8
Faith doesn't eliminate questions. But faith knows where to take them. ~E. Elliot
Our very questioning implies that God is God and I am not....that God is real and active and that He will do what is right (and that I may not know what that is). As long as we are questioning, we are believing. We are answering this question: Is anything too hard for the Lord? (Genesis 18:14) with a resounding, "No."
Keep asking. Keep believing.
Faith means being sure of the things we hope for and knowing something is real even if we do not see it. ~Hebrews 11:1
Asking and believing,